Ben Huber gave me depressing, yet now seemingly optimistic advice at (T?)the Mountain School, "you can keep three." He was talking about keeping three real, constant connections from TMS, a measly, too few to survive, three. Three felt surely too little, I had forty-four, didn't I?

Now, while you all are still my best friend, I realize I have kept one, measly, too few to survive one. I have kept a one, that has pushed and pulled me into a better direction, a one that has helped me do what I do, and be happy with what I don't, but still a measly, too few to survive, one.
Maybe you all have had better luck; I hope with all my heart you have. However, I'm happy, I am truly happy, even without you, and mostly because of you, and what you helped me do and become. So to steal a sappy Adam Sander quote, or Sting quote (whatever, I really don't care),  "if you love someone, set them free. If they come back they’re yours; if they don’t they never were."
Now, I feel proud enough to set you free. I thank you all for what you have done. I would love if you came back, but if not, I understand. Enjoy where you are, and where you're going. One is a measly number, but maybe sometimes, it's just enough.