I have always been that person who texts a camp friend or someone I haven't seen in a long time. The message is something along the lines of "i miss u so much im going crazy come back in2 my lyfee :)". I never mean it. I am not going crazy without them and often times, I do not need them back in my lyfee. I do not miss them so much but I have nothing else to say. That being said, I continue to write this in an effort to save friendships I am certain will not last. It is a last resort.
Until now. I have never really missed anyone except the 44 of you and all the teachers at the mountain school. I can feel it literally and I feel so cliche for saying this (any Twilight fans this is like New Moon) but it hurts to not be with you guys. I think you all know me in ways I don't even know myself. I love every single one of you more than you can imagine even if we were not that close. You have all left a fingerprint on my heart that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.
Do not expect a message saying how much I miss you because I am not scared for us. I am not scared at all. This is the most sure I have ever been in my life because I know that we will stay together forever. I love you all so much.
